「米国行きに辞退者が。。。」

〜イギリス赴任日記〜

2001年3月28日


イギリスを発つ二日前に米国行きのメンバーが一人辞退したと聞き、このトレーニングプログラムに不安を感じだしたときの日記

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2001/03/28　「米国行きに辞退者が。。。」

Two days to go back to Japan and I am busy to do a lot of preparation to moving to Japan.

While I was doing this, big news has came into me and one of trainees has declined to go to NewYork. His reason sounds like this training plan doesn’t match to his future career development. This news woke my potential concerning about my future career as well. When I was assigned for this, I was considering about this and I questioned to HR Dep. and their answer was they are trying to negotiate with CA to decide training program to make this training useful and efficient and I left this to them. This means I trusted them. Because it sounds reasonable to define training program beforehand to be treated properly. Otherwise CA just uses us as labour and my company or trainees themselves won’t be able to learn anything from them.

Now I am reconsidering whether this is right choice for me or not.

Basically I want to be in charge of management, I don’t want to be just an engineer. This means I don’t want to learn just technology but business method, strategy, etc. Now I am asking to myself “ What will you be able to get from this trainee?”, “ Is it ok to leave the company after you took this trainee? (Would this give any bad impact when I join other company?)”
Maybe what I shall do is ;
1. Talk with HR dep. and confirm my assignment after training and training program in details.
2. If 1 is not including anything can be involved in management and there is no target for assignment when I back to Japan, I shall quit this company at this timing.
3. If there is appropriate training program, I can stay but I would like to talk to MR Marshall or my father about impact by leaving company after training.

But sometimes I purely think that I just shall follow my wish which is I’d like to work for company I can do everything. The answer is just simple not so difficult thing. This is also the answer, can be the answer and nobody knows the right answer except myself and right answer will be the one I chose because I make my way, nobody else.

Yes, now I realize what I shall do and shall not do.
I shouldn’t be influenced by anyone else except myself.
I shall just follow the way I’d like to go.

Sometimes, again I was thinking whether I need more learning period or not and people shall keep learning and otherwise start losing their positions. But in the meantime there must be turning point to change the subject and step up to next level. What people usually misunderstand is they try to step up by changing the situation not description of job. From my point of view, changing the location but doing same thing is not challenge and it just change where you work for but nothing changes for what you are doing. Now point is being clear. I shall decline this training if this training expects me to learn technology and expect me to be SE or just engineer. But if this training expects to be manager or strategy developer, this training really sound great for me.

Let’s clarify about this when I meet HR idiot ! What are they expecting me to be or to do after training?


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　『その当時を振り返り』

米国行きは実はトレーニングで、本社で新しい事業を立ち上げるにあたり、その事業にとって重要なシステムを提供する米国IT企業の本社に社員を派遣し、できる限りのことを学ばせるというのが狙いだった。

しかし、初めての試みであること、この会社にはグローバルにおける交渉に慣れていない人財がいないこと、そんな状況の中でトレーニングを辞退した人がでた、しかも自分のキャリア開発に合わないという理由からである。

曲がりなりにも海外で3年間仕事をしてきているため欧米人の仕事の仕方として自分の損得に関わることしかしないという感覚を持っていたため、事前になんのアレンジメントもされていなければ、行っても現地の人に相手にされず何も学べないのではないかという危惧があった。そして、図らずもそれは現実となる。。。。